This was a day of opposition poses with twists and extended time in postures. Ouch! Being on the edge of poses creates frustration and angst in me. I fixate on when Petra will finally move us along. And once she does, how do I coexist with these disruptive (combative?) feelings while staying with my breath?
How Do I Live With Life?
At times, it feels like it all the difficult postures and holds are being “done” to me, which creates confrontational feelings. It is me against the teacher or the pose or like in life, me versus whoever: I win, you lose, I am right; you are wrong, black and white. I used to think “black and white” was a safe place where I would know things and not wonder. Business or math may be more defined but people are all about the gray baby. Life is what it IS and I have to learn to accept it or suffer the consequences.
Yoga Lessons Are Life Lessons. Really.
“Letting go” and “acceptance” does not mean giving up. It means surrendering to what is and staying connected to it the whole way. Through that process, I am free. Whether it is holding a difficult yoga posture, building good relationships, working at my craft, applying for a new job or writing this blog. Simple whole awareness and attention to each thing I am doing. No more. No less.